The Powerful Diversity of Pentecost

Text: Acts 2:1-21

Last August, I had the unbelievable opportunity to spend a week in Switzerland with my family to celebrate my sister’s wedding to her Swiss husband. My parents were there, my sister and her husband were there, his whole family and all of their friends were there, and of course my own husband and toddler came along as well. We had a fabulous trip that I will treasure for the rest of my life. If you ever get the chance, I highly recommend you travel to Switzerland, as it is a country of simply outstanding beauty! While it is a shame to live so far from my sister, I am not at all sad to think that we’ll need to arrange some more trips out there in the future to visit!

One of the coolest perks of traveling outside of the United States, in my opinion, is experiencing how well-developed so many other countries’ public transportation systems are. Having lived in Europe myself for a year in high school, I really miss the convenient, timely, clean, and affordable non-car transportation options Europeans enjoy—a wide range of trains, buses, and even streetcars. As we were riding the streetcar from the wedding reception back to our hotel one hot August night, my husband and I, with our toddler on my lap, had an unexpected and delightful experience. We were minding our own business, mostly trying to keep the toddler occupied since it was past his bedtime, and speaking in hushed tones because we (well, I’ll speak for myself here, I) felt self-conscious as English speakers in a multilingual city where the dominant language was Swiss German. But all of a sudden, we noticed some familiar words and phrases drifting our way from a man and woman talking in some nearby seats. They were speaking English, too!

The city where we were, Zürich, is a multilingual place with lots of international students, workers, and immigrants from around the world. Finding other people who can speak English there is no challenge at all, but finding other people whose first language is English is a little more unusual. So when we realized that we had something in common with these two people, we excitedly started up a conversation. In no time, we found ourselves immersed in a discussion of multiple nerdy topics, including linguistics and even the good old Upper Midwest! It turned out that they were both grad students in Zürich. The man was from the U.K., and the woman was actually from Iowa! There we were, sitting on this unpopulated Zürich tram car and feeling like we didn’t belong, when all along there were these two fellow travelers just a few feet away with common interests, a common language, and a common enjoyment of friendly intellectual banter. When the time came for them to get off at their stop, I actually felt a little bit sad to have to say good-bye. But as I watched them leave, I felt a sense of gratitude for the opportunity to cross paths for that brief time and to discover meaningful connections across the world that I never would have expected. That simple connection of two strangers speaking my language made for the perfect end to a spectacular day.

Today’s passage from Acts is the classic Pentecost text, so in some ways it’s hard to find new ideas to preach about. We hear it every year around this time. The disciples are gathered, the Holy Spirit descends upon them, there are tongues of flame, people speak in all kinds of languages, blah blah blah. Yeah, it’s pretty cool and all, but we’ve heard it before. You’d think the story would get old. But actually, when I read through it this week, I could not believe the number of things that jumped out at me that I wish I had time to talk about. This text is so rich with meaning that it will never stop teaching us something new—which is very fitting, considering the subject it is about: the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is, as my husband likes to tease me about, my favorite member of the Trinity. It’s worth teasing about because the Trinity is really both Three in One and One in Three, so preferring one out of the three isn’t really possible… but I still kind of do. I just can’t help but feel inspired (pun intended) when I think about the Holy Spirit. To me, the Spirit is like the fresh, relevant, activist side of God who works nonstop to put in the sweat and time to get things done in every nook and cranny of this world. Now a quick side-note: as God, the Holy Spirit has no gender, but I personally prefer to use female pronouns to give her a more personal sense and feel more closely connected to her.

If you look in the text of Acts 2, the Holy Spirit shows up almost immediately in the form of a fierce wind filling the entire house where the twelve disciples are sitting. The Spirit can be a still small voice or a subconscious nudging, which is more how I have experienced her, but sometimes she can be loud and powerful. The Spirit lit flames of fire above each person, and suddenly they found themselves speaking God’s message in languages they didn’t even understand! All the people around them there in Jerusalem were shocked to hear this multilingual preaching coming at them so clearly and simultaneously, yet from a decidedly non-diverse, non-multilingual group of people. As it is today, the city of Jerusalem at that time was a hub for believers from many different nations, gathered together to share in their common faith in spite of their different nationalities and native languages. So the fact that this diverse crowd (there are 15 different groups mentioned in the text!) could all hear this same message being preached, in spite of their differences, is exactly the kind of thing the Holy Spirit does.

She bridges gaps where human effort alone falls short. She opens hearts that were otherwise closed. And she brings life into places of darkness and destruction. On that day in Jerusalem, the Holy Spirit reversed the consequences of the Tower of Babel—that moment early on in Genesis when God took away people’s common language in order to prevent their all-too-human pride and greed from wreaking havoc in the world. At Pentecost, the Spirit poured into, through, and out of the disciples to remove those previous linguistic barriers that so often divide people.

Before I go on, I feel compelled to mention the fact that Jerusalem has been on the news a lot this past week. For years—basically continuously since Old Testament times—Jerusalem has been the site and subject of spiritual and political conflict. This conflict has been heightened as of late, and on Tuesday, a tragic 60 Palestinian protesters and journalists, almost all of whom were teenagers or young adults, were killed in a demonstration directly related to the question of who should control the city of Jerusalem. The fact that so much violence and harm is being done regarding and on behalf of Jerusalem, even today, after all these years, highlights the brokenness of our human condition and the level to which worldly forces continue to divide us from our fellow humans, our fellow children of God. But this division, this harm, this violence and force, is not the way of the Holy Spirit.

The good news is that the Holy Spirit breaks into our broken, divided world and opens up unforeseen possibilities. As we see in the story of Pentecost, she takes a group of a dozen probably-illiterate rural Galileans and uses them to shake up the whole metropolitan city of Jerusalem, bringing with her a sweeping new reality in which the old divisions are no longer relevant. The people on the streets of Jerusalem that day may have thought of themselves as Parthians, Medes, Elamites, Mesopotamians, or the rest, but in that moment—as they all heard the same message delivered in their own diverse languages simultaneously—they were united. United as listeners. United as fellow witnesses of a world-changing moment in history. United as recipients of this incredible gift of the Holy Spirit. United as people, each one called by God into relationship. Because that’s what this message from the Holy Spirit is all about.

The message that this multinational, diverse crowd heard that morning was, in the words of verse 11, “the mighty works of God.” And for good reason; it was the story of Jesus Christ. What could be mightier than the story of God, humbly dwelling in human flesh, courageously facing a tortuous death on behalf of all humanity, then rising from the grave to victory and defeating the powers of death forever?! We can even see a little later in the chapter, past where today’s reading ends, that the message in Peter’s sermon hits its climax with this proclamation: “This Jesus, God raised up!” (v. 32).

By enabling the disciples’ tongues and lips to speak languages they didn’t even know, the Holy Spirit brought this powerful message of Resurrection—of redemption—of new life out of death—of hope—into a new era. It was no longer just a message for Jesus’ compatriots or his fellow Galileans. It was no longer just a message for other speakers of Aramaic, the language of that region at the time. It was no longer just a message for the Jewish people. The Holy Spirit broke in to that moment to break the good news out to the world. And in that moment, the church was born.

And one of the most amazing things, to me, is the beautiful diversity in our very birth. This day of Pentecost was a shining example of unity in spite of difference. The Holy Spirit brings unity in a different way from how we human beings tend to do it. So often, we assume that to be united, we have to be the same. That to join together, we have to assimilate. That to unite, we have to agree in our beliefs, or like the same things, or have the same backgrounds, or speak the same languages. But we don’t! The hearers of the Spirit’s message that day in Jerusalem did not have to speak the same language in order to be a part of this unified body. Through God’s miraculous and creative power, the Holy Spirit builds up relationships and unions that are grounded in this world’s marvelous diversity. We don’t have to lose ourselves to become one with the other, and others don’t have to lose themselves to become one with us. The Spirit works in diversity and through diversity to produce amazing results beyond what we could ever create through the limits of our own tendencies to group like with like.

Even in our serendipitous encounter with those two other English speakers on the tram that night back in August, it was—in essence—diversity that brought us together. If we had all been riding on a train in the United States or even in England, I can’t really imagine we would’ve ever started a conversation with them. And yet, over the muffled zooming of the electric streetcar and the sounds of distant chatter and laughter that night, we heard the words of our native language calling through the din. The homey-ness of those familiar words in the midst of that unfamiliar and foreign place brought forth a connection out of the contrast. Likewise, the Holy Spirit is flexible enough, creative enough, powerful enough, and persistent enough to call out to all of our hearts in whatever language we need to hear. The Spirit’s call may (and probably will) be shocking at times, and sometimes unwanted, but when it comes, it hits home. And this is because the Spirit is not limited by our human mindsets, our finite experiences, our knowledge of words or languages, or even our divisions. Ever since time immemorial, the Holy Spirit has been breathing into us and our fellow human beings the words of life.

As Peter exhorts the crowed following these amazing proclamations in all different languages, he quotes the Old Testament prophet Joel: “In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and your daughters will prophesy. Your young will see visions. Your elders will dream dreams. Even upon my servants, men and women, I will pour out my Spirit in those days, and they will prophesy” (vv. 17-18). No one is excluded—not the young people, who have not yet attained their full status in society; not the elderly, whose power is waning; not the women, whose rights and social standing were minimal compared to men in those days; not even the slaves, who are the lowest of all. When it comes to the Holy Spirit, all are welcome and all are included. All can receive the Spirit into their hearts, and all can prophesy. In the Holy Spirit, our awesome, almighty, ineffable God has come down to us and is so close that she is the very air we breathe. When we long for connection and feel like God is far away, the Holy Spirit is right. here. The power of a God who loved us so much that, in Jesus Christ, he died for us and rose again is right. here. Breaking into our hearts, into this church, into this community, into this country, and all throughout the world. She is already working tirelessly to inspire more people to breathe in that love and power and join her in the transformative mission of building God’s beautiful kingdom of justice, unity, and diversity in every place.


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Why Be a Christian?

“I will bless you, and make your name great, so that you will be a blessing.” –Genesis 12:2

Lately, I’ve realized something about myself: I’m a great evangelist. I mean this literally. The word “evangelist” comes from the Greek word for “good news” and is the term for a person who spreads good news far and wide. In my case, I am fantastic at excitedly sharing with other people the good news in my life. I love to tell people about the latest discovery I’ve made that has made my life better—a new food or recipe I love, a new favorite store to shop at, a certain exercise or training program that has helped me, a favorite gadget that makes life easier, the newest album or TV show that I’m obsessed with… the list could go on and on! And yet, what is conspicuously missing from this list of ways that I evangelize?

My faith.

This is not to say that I never talk about God with people. But the more I reflect on it, the more I see that I do so much of this non-God-related evangelism that my lack of Christian evangelism is, well, concerning. Why is it so much harder to tell people the good things that my faith does in my life than it is to talk about some gadget or TV show?

And I think I have the answer—or at least part of it. With all those other things, they are easy to define. It’s easy to explain to people exactly what it is I like about them, and to describe exactly what they do. They’re concrete. They’re limited. They don’t require me to open up about my inner self, my deepest emotions, or my dreams. I can tell people all about them without needing to bare my soul.

In contrast, my faith is much harder to put into words. It’s also impossible to adequately describe without letting down my guard and sharing with people my hopes, my dreams, my feelings, and my struggles. And yet, if my faith is truly something life-changing and important to me, I should be just as ready to evangelize about that as I am about all those lesser things. So the question becomes:

Why Christianity? What is it about my faith that makes it life-changing after all? Why do I do it? Why go to church? Why read the Bible? Why bother praying, or volunteering, or giving, or any of it?

The answer to those questions will be different for every Christian. I encourage you to spend some time thinking about them for yourself, because only then will you be able to articulate what the “good news” is in your life and why it’s worth telling other people about in the first place. For me, here’s how I would answer:

My faith is life-changing because it gives me a purpose that keeps me grounded throughout the ups and downs, the stresses and challenges, of day-to-day life. My relationship with God is a steady anchor for me when the world feels like it’s spinning out of control. I can always find comfort and peace in knowing that God is there and that God’s love and care for me will never stop. And when my to-do list is sky-high or I feel bombarded with bad news, I can always cling to the hope I have that God is constantly at work bringing life and goodness out of every bad situation. Beyond just my own peace of mind, though, being a Christian changes my life because it helps me live in line with a greater purpose. I don’t have to spend my lifetime seeking earthly sources of happiness, because there is far greater joy in knowing that what I do makes a difference. I chose the above verse from Genesis for this article because it has always spoken strongly to me; my sense of my own relationship with God is very much like this statement from God to Abraham. God’s blessing in my life is precisely that God allows and equips me to go out and make a difference in spreading blessing to others. When I make my decisions prayerfully and follow God’s lead, I feel an unparalleled sense of fulfillment because I can see how God is multiplying my humble efforts so that they have a greater impact than I could ever manage if I tried to go my own way. The decisions I’ve made in my life that have had the greatest sense of God’s “call” or leading have—without exception—been the most fruitful, amazing, and rewarding. Even though I don’t talk about it often enough, my faith in God is by far the best “thing” in my life, and the most worth sharing!

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Formless and Void (Sermon on Genesis 1:1-2:4a)

Text: Genesis 1:1-2:4a

From when I first started reading them at age 12 until Book 7 came out when I was 19, I was—to put it mildly—a tad bit obsessed with Harry Potter. I often spent my free time theorizing about what would happen in the next book or comparing interpretations and predictions with other Potter fans. I daydreamed about attending Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry, and I made myself a costume so I could dress up as Hermione Granger for the Book 7 midnight release party at Barnes and Noble. I almost wish I could say otherwise, since it’s so corny and unoriginal to say this, but the Harry Potter series is my favorite book series—and I’ve read a lot of books. But they are wildly popular for good reason: in addition to the incredibly well-developed characters, fascinating storyline, and fun magical world, these books speak powerfully about real life.

As does all good literature, the Harry Potter series explores themes about the human experience and brings to light the ways people feel, think, and act, and the consequences of those actions. Seeing something happen in a fictional story can help us better understand our own lives because we can analyze and understand the fictional example and then apply those lessons to ourselves. We do the same thing when we read any text, including the Bible itself: one aspect of biblical interpretation is looking for the messages that the scriptural stories can teach us about life, God, and ourselves.

In the case of Harry Potter, it’s not surprising that there are infinite topics one could analyze through the lens of these books, since the seven books together total 4,100 pages in the U.S. editions. That’s a lot of material to work with! However, today I want to focus on just one topic, from Book 7: The Deathly Hallows. (This is my favorite of the books, by the way, followed by 6, then 4, but who’s keeping track?) Since it’s been almost exactly 10 years since this book came out, I won’t worry about spoilers—although I do maintain that if you haven’t read these books yet, they’re still very much worth reading!

In Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, we find our main character, Harry, in his worst situation yet—and he has been through a lot in these past 6 years. You see, Harry is known as “The Boy Who Lived” and even “The Chosen One” because he is the only person in the Wizarding World to have ever survived the killing curse cast by the powerful evil wizard Lord Voldemort. Harry’s parents died in the attack that he survived, at age 1, and Voldemort seemed to die (or at least disappear) in the attempt. Orphaned and living with his neglectful relatives, Harry had no idea of his own backstory until he turned 11. Ever since then, though, Harry has had to fend off attacks from a returning Voldemort and his increasingly bold followers, eventually learning of a prophecy that indicates it is he and he alone who must defeat this dark wizard once and for all.

As if that weren’t enough stress for a teenager, at the beginning of The Deathly Hallows, Harry’s whole world is crumbling. The wise and powerful Professor Dumbledore, who took a special interest in Harry and served as his mentor, guide and even father figure, is now dead. The Ministry of Magic, the wizarding government, is now completely in the hands of Voldemort’s minions, and the first order of business in this new regime is to put a price on Harry’s head. Meanwhile, innocent people are being tortured and killed, and witches and wizards who aren’t “pure blood” enough are being rounded up and robbed of their ability to use magic. And Hogwarts School, the first place in his entire life that Harry ever felt welcome and happy, is too dangerous to go back to. While on the run from the government and with the help of just his two best friends, Ron and Hermione, 17-year-old Harry faces the gargantuan task of defeating the most powerful wizard of all time, before even more innocent lives are lost.

Let’s take a moment and try to imagine what Harry is feeling. Close your eyes and let this situation sink in. Feel how your gut would react to that kind of scenario and pressure. How would it feel to have lost some of your closest loved ones, to witness rising violence and see your entire country nearing the point of catastrophe, to be separated from almost all your friends and mentors, and to singlehandedly have to try to come up with a heretofore unheard of means to bring down the most dangerous person in history?

You can open your eyes again. Maybe you felt a little bit of grit and determination there, which Harry definitely has, but it’s impossible to look at the position he’s in and not feel overwhelmed. All the pressure, the grief, the stress, the danger, the worry, the loss, the fear… If I were him, there’s a very good chance I would have collapsed on the floor in tears at the immensity of it all. The vastness of the task at hand and the utter lack of a clear way forward would likely paralyze me in fear and anxiety. It’s like standing in pitch blackness so deep that you can’t see your hand in front of your face, let alone a safe place to put your foot to take your next step. You may not have any walls or chains holding you back, but you’re totally stuck.

We all have moments like this in some way or another, and they can be debilitating. Maybe things were fine, but something happened to stop us in our tracks. Or maybe things were just hard to begin with, and the fatigue sets in such that we feel like we can’t keep going. The reality is that life is not always (or even often) easy. Countless things can get in our way, and we can find ourselves grasping for dear life at what feels like thin air.

When I was reading our Genesis passage for this week, the second verse really spoke to me: “the earth was a formless void and darkness covered the face of the deep,” (Gen 1:2). The Hebrew phrase תֹ֙הוּ֙ וָבֹ֔הוּ (tohu va vohu) has been translated in many different ways. The NRSV calls it “formless and void,” the CEB calls it “without shape or form,” and the Message (which is actually more an interpretation than a translation) calls it “a soup of nothingness, a bottomless emptiness, an inky blackness.” Whichever way you choose to think of it, though, the general gist is clear. And this, I think, is what Harry was in the midst of as he set out to try to defeat Voldemort one last time. A formless void. An immense emptiness. A lack of foothold or direction. Nothing to hold on to.

This is not a foreign story in our faith, either. Only a couple months ago, we celebrated Easter. But before the joy of Easter comes the grief of Good Friday and the despair of Holy Saturday. What better example of a formless void and immense emptiness could there be than the feeling the disciples must have had on Holy Saturday? Jesus—the Messiah, their teacher and leader and friend, the one in whom they had put all their hope—was lying dead in a tomb, executed in the most gruesome, painful, and shameful way possible. These disciples had left their livelihoods, their homes, and possibly their families to follow Jesus in the understanding that he was bringing about a new kingdom that would right the wrongs of this world. And yet the Roman occupation still stood strong, and was in fact responsible for Jesus’ death! What were the disciples to think? What clearer sign of the enemy’s victory could there be than them killing your leader? Jesus—the shepherd to their sheep, the vine to their branches, the bread of life—was gone. All those promises he made of a new kingdom of God? Forget them. The disciples must have been utterly devastated and lost, trying to decide if they should try to go back to their old lives as if this never happened or if they should somehow try to continue Jesus’ ministry even though he was so disappointingly gone. After knowing the incomparable Jesus the Christ, who or what could possibly fill this enormous emptiness they were feeling?

Well, there’s one easy answer to that question. Or three answers, depending on how you look at it! As we all know, Jesus was not in fact gone forever; he rose from the dead on the third day and returned to his shocked, awestruck, and at times (understandably) doubting disciples. So in that way, Jesus himself filled the void that his absence had left. But he didn’t stay with the disciples indefinitely; after 40 days, he ascended into heaven and once again left them without his physical presence on earth. All along, of course, God was there with them hearing their thoughts and prayers, although they couldn’t always feel it. So what were they to do at that point? They found out shortly afterward. The week after the Ascension, on Pentecost, the Holy Spirit came down upon them and inspired them to do amazing works of power! Still today, the Holy Spirit is present throughout the world, continuing Jesus’ work of transforming the world into the kingdom of God. In other words, our Triune God is the answer to the question of who fills that void. Whether in the form of God the Father, Jesus Christ, the Holy Spirit, or all three together, God is the one who makes empty spaces brim with possibility. God is the one who transforms the dying into the living. God is the one who breathes hope and promise into even the darkest and most expansive abyss.

If we look back at that verse from Genesis, we read that “the earth was a formless void and darkness covered the face of the deep, while a wind from God swept over the face of the waters.” That wind from God is the Holy Spirit. Even at the very beginning of Creation, the Spirit was there. And in the Spirit’s movement, life was breathed into the universe. The vast expanse of nothingness became something. And not only was it something, but it was good. It was light, it was shape, it was life, and it was abundance. The world that God created, with its incredible diversity of plants and animals, of stars and planets, and of billions of beautiful, individually unique human beings, God called “very good” (Gen 1:31). And remember, this complex, orderly, magnificent universe started out as an unruly, desolate expanse of darkness.

I think that normally when we read this passage, we tend to think of it on general terms of the Creation story and not so much on a personal level. After all, Genesis 1 is this beautifully poetic description of the creation of the whole Cosmos, and we are mere individual human beings—tiny specks in the fabric of the universe. This passage is primarily about the world’s history before humans ever entered the picture. And yet, the truths of this story are just as applicable to each of us as they are to the universe. The same God who took a vast, formless abyss of nothingness and transformed it into a splendid tapestry brimming with life is the God who loves and cares for you. The same Spirit who brought light to the universe can bring light into any and every dark situation life might throw at you.

The famous words of Psalm 23 echo this same truth: “Even though I walk through the darkest valley, I fear no evil; for you are with me; your rod and your staff—they comfort me” (v. 4). In those dark valleys of our lives, those moments when it feels like we’re grasping at nothing but air, when the future looks as bright as an oncoming storm cloud, when all we can feel is that tohu va vohu or great emptiness… we are not alone. We are never alone. The Spirit of God who was present at Creation itself is always there, breathing life. The God who created abundance out of nothingness is standing guard over us with rod and staff. And Jesus our brother and our savior has promised, in his very last words to the disciples on the Ascension Day, “I am with you always, even to the end of the age” (Matthew 28:20).

In the case of Harry Potter, he finds these truths in the end as well, although it’s a secular fictional book so it is explained in different terms. He discovers that the answer for how to defeat Voldemort is right in front of him the whole time, in a book that Professor Dumbledore had left with him for that very purpose. And when the time comes to finally face Voldemort in battle, he realizes that he has within himself not only the strength for but also the knowledge of what he must do. (The book characterizes it as intuition, but I think it could just as easily be called the inspiration of the Holy Spirit.) The formless void is no longer formless nor void; the answers are clear, and he is not as alone as he thought! In addition to Dumbledore’s guidance that was with him even before he knew it was there, Harry finds in his most difficult moments that all of his lost loved ones are right there by his side. He realizes the way forward, and goes there in the strength given him by those who love him. And not only is he able to defeat Voldemort, but he does it through his own sacrifice rather than having to meet evil with evil and become a killer himself. There was a way where there had been no way. There was light where there had been darkness. There was hope and a new future when it looked like all was lost.

Here in the real world, we don’t have the luxury of magic wands or of happy endings in the same way as the storybooks; however, we have something even better. We have a God for whom bottomless emptiness is not a cause for fear but rather an invitation to create life! And we have a God for whom death is not the end! Our God not only conquered death once and for all in Jesus’ resurrection from the dead, but our same God created the complexities of this universe and continues working through the Holy Spirit to breathe new life and possibilities into the darkest and emptiest parts of our lives and our world. Whether that be the fallout from a conflict or natural disaster, a health or relationship crisis, financial difficulties, overwhelming stress, or even the church’s transition to a new pastor, you are not alone. God has sent the Holy Spirit not only to comfort us, but to draw us forward: to be the lifeline pulling us through the darkness to safety. And when we get to the other side of the void, we can see new life emerging from the shadows. New life that is often as far beyond our wildest imagination as the entire created world is beyond a sea of nothingness! The possibilities are endless, but we can only see them if we take that step of faith in spite of the dark abyss around us. There may be nothing scarier than taking a step forward into the formless void, but we can do so in the full knowledge that the Spirit breathes life into our path and God walks with us every step of the way. Amen.

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No Need for a Sycamore Tree (Sermon on Luke 19:1-10)

He entered Jericho and was passing through it. A man was there named Zacchaeus; he was a chief tax-collector and was rich. He was trying to see who Jesus was, but on account of the crowd he could not, because he was short in stature. So he ran ahead and climbed a sycomore tree to see him, because he was going to pass that way. When Jesus came to the place, he looked up and said to him, ‘Zacchaeus, hurry and come down; for I must stay at your house today.’ So he hurried down and was happy to welcome him. All who saw it began to grumble and said, ‘He has gone to be the guest of one who is a sinner.’ Zacchaeus stood there and said to the Lord, ‘Look, half of my possessions, Lord, I will give to the poor; and if I have defrauded anyone of anything, I will pay back four times as much.’ Then Jesus said to him, ‘Today salvation has come to this house, because he too is a son of Abraham. For the Son of Man came to seek out and to save the lost.’ —Luke 19:1-10

tmp_939-2486382_e9075f4c-209931559 The story of Zacchaeus is a well-known one, especially for us short people. Ever since I stopped growing when I was in 8th grade, I’ve been able to relate at least partially to our vertically challenged main character in today’s passage from Luke. One of my most vivid memories related to my height was standing in the lunch line in high school. We were all teenagers, which means we were starving, so of course everyone was crowding as close to the front of the line as possible. Which meant standing shoulder to shoulder and heel to toe with the people beside and in front of you. Luckily, my female friends were more or less my height at the time, but the boys in our grade… not even close! They all had insane growth spurts around freshman year, so they were towering what seemed like feet above us. I distinctly remember standing next to my best friend, who was at eye level, and looking around to see nothing but boys’ t-shirts around us, since all the boys’ chins were above our heads. If I craned my neck, I could see some of their faces, but it wasn’t even worth trying to have a conversation at that angle. It was easier just to let them look over our heads and face the fact that we were basically invisible.

Being short, that is a nice advantage. It’s usually pretty easy to hide or escape notice when that’s what you want. As a naturally shy person, I’ve used this technique many times. Why draw attention to myself when doing so would mean having to worry about impressing people, whether by my appearance or wit or social skills? Much easier to quietly duck down and fade into the background. Anytime I’m not feeling particularly confident, this is a handy strategy.

Unsurprisingly, due to his short stature, Zacchaeus in our story was familiar with this strategy as well. And for good reason: he was about as unpopular of a person as you could find in ancient Judea. Zacchaeus was a tax collector, which means that it was his job to collect money from his fellow Jews to give as payment to the occupying Roman army. This “job” didn’t actually come with wages, so the only way to any kind of living doing it was to collect extra money from the taxpayers and keep some of it yourself. How much you chose to take, and from whom, was up to the individual tax collector to decide, so although it was a widely despised occupation, some tax collectors would have been more hated than others. Based on his reputation in our passage, Zacchaeus would’ve been in the “more hated” category for skimming too much off the top, since he is described as being very rich and is clearly disliked by his fellow citizens.

And so, when he wanted to get a better look at Jesus, he used a trick that he as a short man already knew: hiding. Although this time he cleverly combined it with adding height and therefore a better view: he climbed a sycamore tree. Now, sycamore trees in ancient Judea were a type of fig tree with wide, dense, fairly low branches. Those low branches would’ve made the perfect hiding spot for a small person to get a couple yards off the ground but stay concealed so as to avoid notice. His hiding didn’t work out quite as he planned, but we’ll get into that part later.

When most people hear the story of Zacchaeus, I think we tend to think of him either as this funny, bumbling man—probably due to that silly children’s song about the “wee little man”—or else as this worst-of-the-worst sinner who is just lucky that Jesus was so nice to him. I don’t know that we necessarily read the story and automatically put ourselves in Zacchaeus’s place. But when I read this passage this week, that was how it hit me. No, I may not be the “worst of the worst” as a sinner—I can certainly name some terrible sins that I haven’t committed, including the extortion that Zacchaeus was guilty of—but that does not make me innocent.

Yes, Zacchaeus took more money than he should have, and did so at the expense of his fellow Judeans. But, the very nature of his job required that he take some if he wanted any money at all to live on, and it’s hard not to get a little carried away when looking out for your own interests. How many of us could say for certain that we wouldn’t do the same in that situation, or at least take a little bit extra? I don’t think I, for one, could say that with 100% certainty. The truth is that our world is complicated. The systems in which we live and participate are corrupt, just as the system that produced Zacchaeus’ job as a tax collector was corrupt. We participate in sinful patterns and systems on a daily basis as we purchase clothing or food that was produced by workers paid less than a living wage, as we reap the benefits of not being discriminated against based on our skin color—or as we live on land claimed for “free” by our white ancestors after it was taken forcefully away from its Native American inhabitants. Not all of our actions are necessarily malicious, evil, or even sinful in themselves, but that does not mean that we are free from the burden and consequences of this sinful world around us. And that doesn’t even get into the everyday actions we do that are sinful, some large and some small: letting loose harsh words about a family member, coworker, or neighbor; selfishly taking something for ourselves when we know someone else wanted or needed it more; or pretending not to see the person in need whom we could have chosen to help. We are all sinners, plain and simple. And the more we stop to think about our sins, the more ashamed we feel. And the more shame and guilt we feel, the more and more tempting it is to hurry to the nearest sycamore tree and find a good hiding spot.

As Zacchaeus was sitting there up in the tree, he was trying to get an unobstructed view of Jesus. Jesus, this famous traveling rabbi known for his compelling teachings, happened to be in town, and for whatever reason, Zacchaeus really wanted to see him. I imagine it was because he had heard such amazing stories of this teacher: of the healings he had performed, the cryptic parables he would share, and the quotable sayings he originated. Jesus had a magnetic personality and drew people to him, and Zacchaeus was not immune to that pull. The truth is that no one is—that “pull” is the loving presence of God made flesh and dwelling in our midst. A whole crowd had already gathered to see Jesus walk by, and Zacchaeus had a good view of the proceedings from his tree branch, safely shielded by the leaves from anyone seeing such a high-ranking official doing something as undignified as sitting in a tree. Or so he thought.

Suddenly, when Jesus arrived at Zacchaeus’s tree, he stopped! No one else had noticed this little man sneak up the tree, since the crowd was so focused on Jesus and since Zacchaeus had run ahead so that he wouldn’t be seen. But Jesus saw him. And not only did he see him, but he really saw him. He saw him for who he was—for his self-conscious desire to hide, for his many sins, for his social isolation due to everyone’s hatred toward him—but also for his goodness. Jesus saw the goodness in Zacchaeus that no one else had noticed. No one else had believed it existed or had cared to even look for it. No one, not even Zacchaeus himself! But Jesus, this seeming stranger and famous teacher from another town, could see all of this in just one instant. He looked at Zacchaeus, peering through those sycamore branches, and he loved him. And seeing short, despised, Zacchaeus hiding in that tree, Jesus said to him, “Come down at once. I must stay in your home today!” (v. 5). What a shock that must have been!

This is where everything changes. Zacchaeus had planned to stay hidden, but now he was the center of attention. He had planned just to watch, but now he was being called to action. He had assumed that he was unqualified to do anything related to Jesus’ visit, but now he was being asked to contribute in a way that he could certainly manage. He had expected to be despised, but now he was given the greatest honor of all: being the one person chosen to host this renowned rabbi during his one-night stay in Jericho.

And it’s amazing the transformation that happened within Zacchaeus in that moment. Immediately, he jumped down from his branch and welcomed Jesus. The love and respect Jesus had for Zacchaeus instantly extinguished Zacchaeus’s nerves about being seen in the tree. But even more miraculously, Jesus’ loving treatment awakens a desire in Zacchaeus to be a better man. Without any prompting whatsoever—without judgment, knowing glances, demands, or even requests—Zacchaeus decides that it is time to change his life. He declares right then and there that he will change his ways. He will give half of his belongings to the poor, and he will repay anyone that he has cheated with four times as much. Wow! That is not the same man who until this day was cheating his neighbors in order to store up extravagant wealth for himself.

The text doesn’t say so, but I have no doubt in my mind that upon hearing this, Jesus burst into a huge smile. This kind of transformation is exactly what his ministry is about; it’s exactly what God’s love does and what God intends for the world. Turning from bad choices to good ones, from broken relationships to life-giving kinship, from greed to generosity, and from scarcity to abundance. On that day, through Jesus’ invitation, Zacchaeus discovered his God-given potential to do good in the world, embraced it, and was welcomed into this new life with celebration. As the crowds around him grumbled with jealousy at this sinful tax collector receiving such high honor, Jesus ignored the negativity and proclaimed with joy, “Today, salvation has come to his household” (v. 9). This man whom others looked down upon for his sinful lifestyle, and who was self-aware enough to know his own failings and hide from the hostile eyes of the crowd, was never too sinful or too hated or too invisible for Jesus not to see and love him. The love of God emanating from Jesus penetrated through the leafy branches of the sycamore tree and directly into Zacchaeus’s heart, opening him up to his inherent goodness as it pushed away the selfish desires of sin. God’s love is not just for the righteous, or the well-put-together. It is for sinners. It is for us.

And when we allow God’s love in, astonishing things happen. Like the spouse whose love and presence drives you to be a better person when you’re around them, like the coach who knows just how to teach and motivate you to constantly improve, the Holy Spirit works within us to bring out the very best in us and works alongside us to multiply our efforts beyond what we could achieve ourselves. We need not let our guilt and shame burden us any longer; Jesus knows all about it and does not judge us for it. His love for us is not an ignorant love; it is all-knowing but also powerful beyond measure. He loves us because he knows exactly who we are, our very best and our very worst. And he chooses to shower us with that love in the hope that we can embrace our own best and live into the amazing potential that God has created us for. Zacchaeus was not meant to live out his days as a hated tax collector. Instead, he through his transformation has become an inspiration for countless Christians over two millennia and counting. We have our failings, and will continue to fall short, but that is not all we are. We are also beloved children, created by God out of love and precious in God’s sight.

So when we have those days, or those moments, when we wallow in our own sin—when we feel sorry for ourselves, think that we don’t deserve love, or feel hopelessly lost—we can take heart. Jesus says specifically that he came “to seek and save the lost” (v. 10). Jesus doesn’t love us for our perfection, because that’s not who we are. He loves us for our broken, but beloved, selves—for the goodness in our hearts even when shadowed by guilt and sin, and for the powerful potential we each have within us to be his hands and feet spreading love in this world that he came to save. And when we accept that love and allow ourselves to believe and relish in its goodness, we are transformed. We can take a stand for what’s right. We can give more than we thought we could afford. We can reach out to the people who are different from us. We can make a positive difference in spreading the good news of God’s love.

Like Zacchaeus, sometimes we feel so ashamed that we want to hide from God’s love, but the good news is that Jesus will not hold our past against us. Out of love, he died on the cross and freed us from the bondage of sin so we can face the future with hope. Like Zacchaeus, sometimes we worry that we’re not talented enough or experienced enough to be able to do the work God has set in front of us, but the good news is that we don’t do it alone! The Holy Spirit is empowering our every breath, guiding our steps and our hands to serve the needs of the world.

So let us take those steps, accept that love in our hearts, and look ahead with courage and confidence into a future brimming with possibility. Jesus, our Savior, has seen us as we are and loves us, and he is reaching out with a hand and a smile to allow us to experience something new. We, the lost, have been found, and the burdens of our old life need no longer weigh us down. With Jesus inviting us and the Holy Spirit empowering us, we can experience the incomparable life of faith made even more abundant as we learn to share and spread Christ’s love near and far. Thanks be to God. Amen.

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Look Ahead: A Sermon on Luke 9:51-62

Luke 9:51-62

51When the days drew near for him to be taken up, he set his face to go to Jerusalem. 52And he sent messengers ahead of him. On their way they entered a village of the Samaritans to make ready for him; 53but they did not receive him, because his face was set toward Jerusalem. 54When his disciples James and John saw it, they said, “Lord, do you want us to command fire to come down from heaven and consume them?” 55But he turned and rebuked them. 56Then they went on to another village.

57As they were going along the road, someone said to him, “I will follow you wherever you go.” 58And Jesus said to him, “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head.” 59To another he said, “Follow me.” But he said, “Lord, first let me go and bury my father.” 60But Jesus said to him, “Let the dead bury their own dead; but as for you, go and proclaim the kingdom of God.” 61Another said, “I will follow you, Lord; but let me first say farewell to those at my home.” 62Jesus said to him, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God.”


I don’t know about you, but I really struggled to make sense of today’s reading from Luke, especially the second half of it. It’s one of those sections of the gospels where my natural inclination is to read it, pause, spend a few seconds wondering what I’m missing, then shrug it off and keep going. I may not get anything out of it that way, but at least I don’t sit there confused, or indignant, at what I’ve just read.

If you ask me, confusion and indignation would both be very appropriate responses after hearing Jesus tell us that becoming his disciple means having to shunt two basic, core responsibilities to our families. To one man, Jesus says that he has to miss his own father’s funeral. To another, Jesus says that he shouldn’t say good-bye to his family before embarking on what is implied to be a lifelong journey of itinerant ministry. Don’t we normally expect Jesus to encourage loving actions and family values, not abandonment? These harsh commands are not what we expect to hear from our loving teacher and savior. This, in short, is why I often gloss over this passage without trying to understand it. It’s too hard, and more importantly, it’s too unpleasant, to want to believe.

This week, though, because I’m preaching on this text, skipping over it is not an option. So, let’s look at this story again, but with new eyes. Is Jesus really saying what it sounds like—that being a Christian and being a good family member are incompatible—or is there another message here for us?

In this passage, we meet Jesus as he is starting to head to Jerusalem, where he will eventually be arrested and killed. His disciples are with him, and they have just passed through a village in Samaria. Of the three exchanges Jesus has with different disciples in this text, the first one is probably the least offensive to us. As they all are walking down the road, one of the disciples, feeling inspired as he contemplates what an amazing leader Jesus is, says to him, “I will follow you wherever you go,” (v. 57). In this way, this disciple speaks for all of us. We all have our moments of optimism, of passion, when we feel like we could and would do anything for God. But Jesus knows that the road ahead is far more complicated than the rosy picture in our minds. He tells this disciple that following in his footsteps means roughing it: “Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests; but the Son of Man [and by extension, his followers] ha[ve] nowhere to lay [their] head[s],” (v. 58). This disciple is free to follow, but he needs to know what he’s getting into. This is not a commitment for the fainthearted. In this case, following Jesus means journeying where the Spirit leads, and this requires being homeless.

While being homeless is not exactly anyone’s dream, it at least has a noble quality to it when done for a good cause. The next two things Jesus says are harder to get behind. First, he calls to a different disciple, “Follow me.” And the man makes what sounds like a reasonable request: “First let me go and bury my father,” (v. 59). However, instead of agreeing to that one, very understandable, condition, Jesus refuses. Instead of allowing the man to fulfill this important family obligation, he is told to “go and proclaim the kingdom of God” (v. 60). There is some debate among scholars as to precisely what is meant regarding the burial of the man’s father. Some believe that the disciple wanted to continue living at home as usual until his father died and was buried, and then come follow Jesus. Others see it as a more immediate event—the father has just died and will be buried soon. Either way, though, Jesus makes it clear that family obligations—even important ones—cannot match the urgency of the coming kingdom of God. And this is not an easy truth to hear or accept.

The last disciple we encounter in this passage tells Jesus, “I will follow you, Lord; but let me first say farewell to those at my home,” (v. 61). Again, this sounds like a very reasonable request. If I were about to leave home for months or years to go follow a traveling preacher, I think that the very least I’d owe my family would be a nice good-bye. How would they feel if I just went away without saying good-bye? Since when is abandonment a Christ-like thing to do? And yet, Jesus’ response indicates that saying good-bye was too much to ask. He says, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God,” (v. 62). It’s an unexpected and indirect answer to the man’s question, but the implication is clear. Rather than honoring the man’s simple request to say farewell to his household before joining Jesus’ ministry, Jesus tells him that he has to follow without looking back. Considering the fact that the prophet Elijah accepted Elisha’s request to kiss his parents good-bye before he joined Elijah’s ministry (1 Kings 19:20), Jesus’ refusal here is all the more noteworthy. Again, we see Jesus emphasizing that following him is no easy task, and its importance surpasses everything we normally hold dear.

So according to this passage, proclaiming the kingdom of God is more important than having belongings or a place to stay. Following Jesus is more important than following the commands of the Torah such as honoring one’s parents through appropriate burial. Living into the kingdom of God is even more important than upholding the rituals of the most beautiful of human relationships, the family. In short, commitment to God’s kingdom must come first, before anything and everything else, no matter how valuable. And that is a hard, hard truth.

And yet, could it be any other way? Think for a moment about these disciples’ requests. Outside of the context of this story, they are honorable and reasonable requests. They show strong commitment to family and living up to one’s responsibilities. Similarly, wanting to provide a balanced, nutritious, filling meal for your child is very honorable and appropriate. But what if you’re on a boat filled with dozens of sick and starving people and there is only a small amount of food to go around? In that context, is it still right to give your child enough food to provide a complete and nutritious meal? Or would it be better to limit what you give your child so that the other children on the boat might not starve?

In other words, priorities change in different contexts. What Jesus is expressing to his disciples here is an urgency that they were not understanding. It’s not that any of their requests were wrong; it’s that the kingdom of God is just that important. And that immediate. As important as family and other relationships are, they are not God. To put them first, before God, even if done out of love and good intentions, is one form of idolatry. And I say this as someone who is just as guilty of this as anyone, especially now that I have a new baby.

The thing is, none of these requests sounds excessive at first. But any and all of them could easily lead down a rabbit hole of “just one more.” In the example of burying his father, there are so many other things that happen when someone dies (and this is assuming the father has already died, which is unclear in the text). Can’t you just imagine the man finishing the burial and then wanting to stay just to get the house settled, just to plant the crops this year, just to wait until harvest, just to get a good nest egg saved up for his mother, just… just… As the saying goes when it comes to any big decision—going on that big trip, trying to have a baby, changing jobs, moving—there’s always some reason to put it off. There’s never a “perfect time.” And Jesus knows this about us, even when we don’t realize it ourselves. We will always find that next excuse to wait until later, or to decide that the commitment isn’t for us. If Jesus had let the man go bury his father, would he ever have come back?

The same problem applies to the man who wants to say good-bye to his family. I would know, since I’m from Minnesota: home of the so-called “Minnesota good-bye.” In my 3 years so far in South Dakota, I’m pretty sure you have it here, too. It’s when you announce that you really should leave soon, then have another round of dessert or coffee, then spend a half hour talking at the door, then another 45 minutes talking next to the car, and then another 20 minutes chatting through the rolled-down car window before finally driving off. Good-byes can last forever. Especially when saying good-bye to loved ones, it can be incredibly difficult to pull ourselves away and actually go through with leaving. I imagine that this disciple might have some “just one more”s of his own: just one more hour, just one more night, just one more hug, just one more kiss… Again, Jesus is showing us that he understands. He knows what it’s like to be human because he’s experienced it himself. If we give even an inch, we may soon find ourselves a mile away. And when the goal is something as important as the kingdom of God, that mile is too much to risk! So when these disciples ask him for an inch, he doesn’t give in. Instead, he reminds them why he’s here in the first place.

Jesus didn’t come to Earth to uphold the status quo. He came to turn the world upside down: to pull the powerful from their thrones and lift up the lowly, to preach good news to the poor and release to the captives, to heal the sick and liberate the oppressed. And this message, this mission, is something worth giving up everything for. When Jesus calls to us, “Follow me,” he isn’t inviting us on an afternoon excursion. He’s calling us into a kingdom of new possibilities that go beyond our imagining. The sorrow, pain, and injustice we see around us—brought to light so excruciatingly in the recent shooting in Orlando—will not last. God is transforming this world—our broken, sinful world—into a kingdom of peace, life, and wholeness. And Jesus calls us, inviting us to follow him into that new world of transformation.

It sounds crazy—impossible, even. And I’ll be honest, I still don’t really understand how this will all happen, even though I believe it. If God can come to earth in human flesh, can drive out demons and heal the sick, and can die but rise again to new life, then who are we to say that God can’t transform the entire world!? I’ve felt the power of the Holy Spirit working through me to accomplish things I’d never be able to do on my own. I’ve been in Spirit-filled gatherings where people display inhuman amounts of love as they collaborate and come together in spite of divisive differences. I’ve met people whose lives were completely turned around after encountering Jesus Christ and people whose sense of peace truly does pass all understanding. These, I believe, are all examples of God’s kingdom coming to fruition in the here and now. Even in the midst of all that’s wrong with the world, transformation is happening. New life is bursting forth out of places of decay. Joy is erupting in the face of sorrow.

The closer we follow to Jesus, the more of this transformation we can see. And not only see, but also participate in. Being a disciple of Jesus Christ means living as he did: righting wrongs, feeding the hungry, comforting the grieving, and healing the sick. We may do it in ordinary ways rather than miracles like he often performed, but that doesn’t change the fact that each one of those actions is a beautiful example of transformation. But we need to be paying attention in order to find those opportunities and experience those moments.

To the third disciple in our passage, Jesus says, “No one who puts a hand to the plow and looks back is fit for the kingdom of God,” (v. 62). I’m not a farmer, but I’ve heard that looking backwards while plowing is a bad idea. And when the rows are not of corn or beans but rather seedlings of God’s kingdom on earth, it’s even more important to plant them straight so that they have the best chance at growing strong and tall.

In my opinion, this image really gets to the heart of what Jesus intended with all of his comments in this exchange. It’s not just about making sure we count the cost of discipleship or that we put God first. It’s about knowing who we are, whose we are, and where we are heading. If you know where you’re going, the rest will take care of itself. But if you’re looking back, or procrastinating, or making excuses, then you get so sidetracked that you forget your goal in the first place. When we follow Jesus into the kingdom of God, we need to be looking straight ahead. No matter what else comes up, we must remember the promise of the coming kingdom and orient our lives toward it: toward healing, peace, justice, and abundant life.

And when we do, those other requests are no longer relevant. When we have the kingdom in view, we can continue to pursue it in all aspects of our lives. Instead of asking Jesus those evading questions of “But first…”, we will be forging ahead excitedly, saying “But also…”! Not “But first let me bury my father.” Instead, “But also let me anticipate the resurrection, even when the time comes for my father to die.” Not “But first let me say good-bye to my family.” Instead, “But also let me share the good news of God’s kingdom with my family!” In Jesus Christ, in the earthly moments of transformation that show us the kingdom of God arriving, there are always new possibilities. It’s just that we miss them if we don’t look forward.

Let us look forward, then, with our faces turned toward resurrection and life, and take those first trembling steps in the path of Jesus. Amen.

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12 Questions: A Time to Reflect

A few days ago, Liz shared a few questions for other bloggers to ponder and answer as a time to pause and reflect a little bit. I don’t usually post things like this, but I thought the questions were really powerful and decided I’d better give it a shot!

What’s your favorite way to pass time? What do you enjoy most?

Well, for the cheesy answer, I enjoy any time I get to spend with my husband. 🙂 Of the things we do together, I’d say my favorite is when we just sit (or walk) and talk about deep things together for hours. Every time we have one of those epic conversations, I just think to myself about how there is nothing better in the world. But a close second would be the moments of pure bliss when the two of us get to relax outside in beautiful weather, watching our adorable dog run and play his heart out–the epitome of joie de vivre.

What is the best or hardest decision you have ever made?

Speaking of conversations with my husband, we literally JUST talked about this question a couple days ago. In reflecting on it, I’d have to say that the best and hardest decision I’ve ever made was to end a romantic relationship that I had finally realized was toxic to me and would’ve pulled me down a far different path for my life than I now have the joy and privilege to live. I probably would’ve come to my senses at some point before things got completely out of hand, but I am incredibly grateful that I had the self-awareness and courage to get out of it when I did. And, happily, ending that relationship made room for me to meet and fall in love with the man who I am now so blessed to be married to.

Describe your personality with only one word.

Hmm… SUCH a tough task for someone as longwinded as me! Well, I’m going to go with “purposeful.” I think that encompasses many of the aspects of my personality that are either strongest or most important to me (or both). I am very meticulous and a little obsessed with being productive, so everything I do has to have some sort of purpose. There are few things that can put me off-balance as quickly or reliably as having an indefinite period of unstructured time ahead of me and no plans to organize it.

On the faith side of things, I try hard to align my life to greater purposes than my own–living out my calling to serve God and neighbor. This comes out most visibly in my choice of career and ministry path, but I also seek to do this in smaller ways like how I spend my money, how my daily decisions can make a difference in bringing a little more justice into the world.

What’s been the most important/transformative moment in your life during the past year?

This has been a CRAZY INSANE year for me, so I really don’t think I can pick just one. It seems like all the big things in my life have transformed hugely in the last year! First of all, I got commissioned as a deacon in the UMC this May, which was an enormous step in my own call into ministry. The feeling of the support and prayers of the entire annual conference, as well as the pull of the Holy Spirit on my during the commissioning service was incredible. I left that moment totally inspired to be a leader, bridging the church and the world. (Not that I’ve been 100% successful at that in the months since, but still…)

Secondly, this has been the first year of my entry into the career I’ve been dreaming about ever since feeling a call to it about 5 years ago. I got to student teach from January to May, and working in a school every day felt so perfect and amazing that I didn’t even really mind the horribly early mornings, nights away from my family, or 2+ hour each way weekend commutes. It was a transformative period for me because I finally was able to transition from the identity of “student” (which I’ve been FOREVER) to “teacher,” which I was delighted to find fit me just as well as I had believed it would. And now, I’ve been teaching in my own classroom for the past 2 months and truly love it. I’m blessed to have wonderful students and supportive administrators, and it has been the most amazing adventure.

Third, because yes there’s more, there was the whole finding-out-I’m-pregnant thing! In mid-July, we found out that we’re expecting our first child to arrive around the beginning of March! This is something we’ve been looking forward to for a long time, but there was still always that fear of moving into the unknown… jumping from a marriage I love to a bigger family with a new member who will force us to change our routines (probably more than I can even imagine at this stage!). And I think the reality of seeing proof of it… in the form of a positive pregnancy test one day, when it was far too early in the morning for me to fully process anything… was the step I needed to start to move past the apprehension and into the eager anticipation. So now we’re just excited! As my belly grows and the baby becomes more and more noticeable to the outside world, I feel so privileged to get to have such a close connection to another human life and to feel the little kicks and movements when they’re still too small to discern from the outside. It’s still hard to imagine the kind of baby, and child, and human being that this new life will become–but I can’t wait to find out! I don’t necessarily feel prepared to be a parent, but I don’t think many people ever do beforehand, so I’m excited for the journey into this crazy new challenge that our bundle of joy will bring in a few months!

What is standing between you and happiness?

Wow, that’s a deep question. It’s really hard for me to answer it because (as I hope you’ve noticed through reading my previous answers), I have SO much happiness in my life already. I am so thankful to have a life where I don’t have to constantly worry about money, where I feel loved on a daily basis and have so many amazing people in my life, and where I have a job/career that I care deeply about, find meaningful on a daily basis, and can make a (small) income doing.

The only thing that could make me happier would be to know that more people (well, everybody) could live as blessed of a life as this. It’s hard sometimes to balance wanting to enjoy and appreciate the good things in my life with not forgetting those who don’t have such abundance around them, and making sure I actually do something about it other than feel guilty.

What (or who) are you most grateful for?

I could write such a long list here, but seeing as this post is already super long and I’m only halfway through the questions, I’ll go with the short-and-sweet, easy answer: my husband! And he definitely is a cut above all the rest, although I love and appreciate them all so much as well. If he weren’t, I wouldn’t have married him!

Name one thing you’ve always wanted to do, but have never done before?

In trying to come up with this answer, I’m discovering that perhaps I should create a bucket list somewhere to keep track of all the things I’d love to do… ride in a hot air balloon, see Les Mis on Broadway, travel to Scotland/Ireland/Germany/Switzerland/Sweden(over and over)/U.S. road trip/Central America… But for my “main” answer, I’d say– learn Spanish. I’ve been meaning to actually study it in an organized, disciplined way for years. I already know a decent amount of Spanish from one year of it in high school, plus a lot of interactions with Spanish-speaking ELL students in the last couple years. But my comprehension is way above my ability to produce Spanish, and I just wish I had studied it more thoroughly at some point to gain some fluency. Someday…

Where have you lived in your life? If you’ve never moved (or even if you have), where would you like to try living?

Oh, sooo many places! I’ve lived in 6 cities across southern Minnesota, 2 cities in Wisconsin, 1 in Illinois, and 1 in South Dakota. Plus 1 in Sweden. I tend to keep to the cold climates, it seems, which is silly for someone as cold-blooded as me. I will always consider Minnesota my home, so that’s the place I long for the most right now. But I would love to try living in Bath, England, too. When we visited there on our trip to Europe in 2011, it was the most incredible small city. It would be such an amazing place to get to stay day after day after day.

What is the most important/most meaningful thing in life?

I guess my answer here is twofold. First, it’s important to feel loved and secure in knowing you matter and have value. Second, it’s important (at least for me) to have a purpose behind what you do so that you can feel like it has more meaning than just whatever incidental enjoyment or effect is happening in the moment. While the enjoyment of the moment itself certainly can be the purpose, I don’t think that should be the limit of what our lives are for. As a Christian, I believe that God is calling us all into lives of greater peace and joy as we find our own unique ways to love and serve those around us and make the world a better place, one person and one moment at a time.

In one sentence share what your wish for your future.

My wish for my future is that I can continue living into my path as a teacher, a deacon, a wife, and a mother and that through these roles I can find meaning while helping to make a positive difference in the world around me.

Where do you find your inspiration + motivation?

As a theologically educated person of faith, my inspiration and motivation comes from my beliefs about God and the Way of living embodied and taught by Jesus Christ. I sometimes experience inspiration directly through the biblical text, but oftentimes it comes through the spoken or written words of others in sermons, theological books/articles, and even everyday conversations.

What is your motto in life?

For those interested, I consider Romans 12:1-18 to be my “plumb line” text, as they called it in seminary. It’s sort of like a motto in that I think it summarizes my philosophy about what a good life looks like. But it’s also quite long.

A shorter one, that I’ll steal from John Wesley (the founder of Methodism) via Liz, is “The world is my parish.” When John Wesley said it originally, he meant it in that he would take his preaching out of the church buildings and into the fields where all the poor and working class people were. For me, it’s similar. In my call as a deacon, I feel strongly that I should be living out a life of love and service to others in the name of Christ, but that (for me) it should be done out in the world rather than in the church building. As I’ve described in various questions above, I try [with varying levels of success] to align my daily decisions with my call to love my neighbors as myself, and I truly believe that even those little things are an important form of ministry. And that goes for all Christians–all people of faith, in fact–it’s not limited to deacons or pastors or clergy. So when I say “The world is my parish,” I mean that my faith doesn’t stop at the door when I leave the church, and it doesn’t disappear when it’s not being talked about explicitly. I want my whole life to reflect the goodness, love, and mercy of the God who created and called me (and all of us) into a relationship of wholeness and joy.

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The Power of Touch – sermon on Mark 5:21-43

Mark 5:21-43
21When Jesus had crossed again in the boat to the other side, a great crowd gathered around him; and he was by the sea. 22Then one of the leaders of the synagogue named Jairus came and, when he saw him, fell at his feet 23and begged him repeatedly, “My little daughter is at the point of death. Come and lay your hands on her, so that she may be made well, and live.”

24So he went with him. And a large crowd followed him and pressed in on him. 25Now there was a woman who had been suffering from hemorrhages for twelve years. 26She had endured much under many physicians, and had spent all that she had; and she was no better, but rather grew worse. 27She had heard about Jesus, and came up behind him in the crowd and touched his cloak, 28for she said, “If I but touch his clothes, I will be made well.” 29Immediately her hemorrhage stopped; and she felt in her body that she was healed of her disease. 30Immediately aware that power had gone forth from him, Jesus turned about in the crowd and said, “Who touched my clothes?” 31And his disciples said to him, “You see the crowd pressing in on you; how can you say, ‘Who touched me?’” 32He looked all around to see who had done it. 33But the woman, knowing what had happened to her, came in fear and trembling, fell down before him, and told him the whole truth. 34He said to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your disease.”

35While he was still speaking, some people came from the leader’s house to say, “Your daughter is dead. Why trouble the teacher any further?” 36But overhearing what they said, Jesus said to the leader of the synagogue, “Do not fear, only believe.” 37He allowed no one to follow him except Peter, James, and John, the brother of James. 38When they came to the house of the leader of the synagogue, he saw a commotion, people weeping and wailing loudly. 39When he had entered, he said to them, “Why do you make a commotion and weep? The child is not dead but sleeping.” 40And they laughed at him. Then he put them all outside, and took the child’s father and mother and those who were with him, and went in where the child was. 41He took her by the hand and said to her, “Talitha cum,” which means, “Little girl, get up!” 42And immediately the girl got up and began to walk about (she was twelve years of age). At this they were overcome with amazement. 43He strictly ordered them that no one should know this, and told them to give her something to eat.

I’ve kept a diary or journal, off and on, for most of my life. I got my first diary as a birthday present when I turned 7 and have gone through it and probably 25 more journals in the many years since then. On those handwritten pages, I spilled out my heart and my secrets… but let’s be honest, it was mostly about my crushes. For those of you who’ve kept a journal, have you ever gone back to read your old entries? What was that like? If you’re anything like me, it can be a cringe-worthy experience that you don’t want to dwell on any longer than necessary.

I recently saw a documentary, Mortified Nation, that showed me I’m not alone in the obsessive crushes, the naïve fantasies, or the other embarrassing aspects of my high school experience. Apparently there are venues across the country where people show up to read from their teenage selves’ diaries—out loud—to an audience. Anyone who has ever had a diary—or, really, anyone who has ever been a teenager—can probably imagine why these shows go by the name, “Mortified.” It sounds absolutely insane. Your teenage years included more than enough embarrassing moments on their own… why in the world would you want to relive them in front of strangers?

The surprising truth, though, is that instead of feeling more embarrassed, participants in these shows actually feel much better after reading their diaries out loud. Because, for the first time in their lives, they can show their most vulnerable, honest, true self and be accepted in spite of—even because of—exactly who they are, quirks and all. And it turns out that those feelings we’ve all had, where we feel so different, so alone, so misunderstood, and think we have no one we can share that with… those are probably the most relatable, universal feelings of all!

Now, teenagers tend to be a little extreme in their emotions and the way they react to them, and we’ve all been there. But the thing is that even as adults, we are not immune to these feelings of not belonging—even if we sometimes think we are or wish we were. It’s true that our wish to belong doesn’t tend to manifest itself in quite the same ways anymore, but we still have those times when we desperately want to fit in. Acceptance and belonging are human needs as much as food and shelter, but too often there are doubts or external reasons standing in the way. Apart from maybe journaling, what are we to do when we’re feeling lost, excluded, hurt, or ashamed?

In our Bible passage today from Mark 5, we see a woman who feels all of these things and more. Like so many women in the Scriptures, she goes unnamed and is often referred to as the Woman with the Flow of Blood or the Hemorrhaging Woman. We call her this because she is described in the text as having suffered from bleeding for the last 12 years. She did everything she could and spent all of her money seeking out medical treatment from all the doctors she could find, but her bleeding only grew worse. So at this stage in her life, she’s been bleeding for over a decade, is still sick and in pain, and doesn’t have a penny to her name.

We don’t know the exact medical cause of this woman’s bleeding, but to Jews at the time it was seen as equivalent to extended menstruation. And therefore, for the entire duration of the bleeding, the woman would be considered ritually unclean by Jewish law. A ritually unclean person could not touch a ritually clean person without contaminating that person and making them unclean as well. So it was common practice for menstruating women to seclude themselves completely until their bleeding stopped. But what if the bleeding lasted for 12 years instead of a few days? It is likely that this woman had not felt human touch or had meaningful interactions with anyone for 12 whole years! Can you even imagine? If she had family or friends, they wouldn’t be able to visit her without contaminating themselves, and they probably eventually gave up on her after she was still unclean so many years later. The isolation she must have felt is staggering.

Understandably, then, this woman was desperate. Desperate to belong again. Since all of her social and financial problems stemmed from her medical condition, it makes sense that she would focus her energy on finding physical healing. It was all she could think of, so she spent everything she had trying every doctor in town. When that didn’t work, though, she stopped playing by the rules and did something crazy. Audacious. Rude. In a culture where any touch, even brushing against someone by accident, held the power to spread her ritual uncleanness, she did the unthinkable: she joined a jostling crowd. Even trying her hardest, it would be impossible for her to avoid touching the people around her and thus contaminating them according to the purity laws. But she did it anyway—all for the chance that she could get close to Jesus. She wanted nothing more than just to get to touch the hem of his robes, for she believed that even that simple touch would heal her ailment and allow her to live a normal life.

You see, she had heard about this teacher from Nazareth. She heard of this Jesus, a man who brought healing wherever he went. Despite not having seen or met Jesus before, this woman has the faith, or perhaps the desperation, to believe fully in his healing power and to do everything necessary to get just a small share of that power. What the woman doesn’t know is that, at this very moment, Jesus is on his way to heal someone else: the daughter of a synagogue leader named Jairus.

Although both are in need of healing, the contrasts between the bleeding woman and Jairus’ daughter are striking. One is old and weak, the other young and at the prime of her life. Jairus’ daughter is the precious only child of an elite leader in the synagogue. She lives in a house with servants, part of a highly respected and well-off family. She is so dearly loved by her father that he swallows the pride of his high status and falls at the feet of a lowly traveling preacher in order to beg Jesus to help his daughter. The woman is poor, alone, and an outcast, with no family and no one who will advocate on her behalf. Jairus’ daughter is gravely ill, with the threat of death at any moment. While certainly ill herself, the woman’s condition is not life-threatening. And most striking of all, Jairus’ daughter is 12 years old, at the age to begin menstruation and gain the ability to produce life through childbearing—something that the other woman’s constant bleeding has made her unable to do for 12 years. This girl’s entire lifetime, filled with comfort and love and hope, has been the same 12 years that were for the bleeding woman full of pain and isolation and despair.

If you were in Jesus’ place, with these two individuals in need of healing, who would you prioritize? The young, vibrant, respected, and well-off girl who will die without immediate attention? Or the poor, haggard woman no one knows, who may be in pain but will certainly survive another hour, week, or month without treatment? The obvious answer, by any worldly measure, is to treat the girl first. Her need is more urgent. Plus, her father came the “right,” respectable way to ask Jesus for help. The bleeding woman didn’t get in line or ask politely; she spread her uncleanness to the people around her and came up from behind to take the healing for herself by reaching out to touch Jesus’ cloak.

But, in typical Jesus fashion, he does the unexpected and heals the woman first. To be fair, the healing was a surprise to him as much as anyone, as he felt the power surge out of him through the woman’s fingertips. Realizing this, he could easily have continued on his way to Jairus’ house without pause, glad that yet another person had been healed along the way but intent on completing his mission to heal the dying girl. Yet this is not what he does. I believe it is because Jesus knows the depth of this woman’s suffering—the physical bleeding was only the tip of the iceberg, as much as it may have consumed her thoughts, and she is emotionally wounded from her many years as an outcast. She may have been intent only on obtaining physical healing, but Jesus sees the hurts under the surface that go much deeper. He stops immediately and asks, “Who touched me?” It sounds almost accusatory at first, but then we see that what he really wants is to meet this woman face-to-face so that she might be spiritually and emotionally, not just physically, healed.

At his question, the woman comes forward to kneel at Jesus’ feet, trembling with the fear of knowing she has wrongfully burdened Jesus with her ritual uncleanness. But something, perhaps the expression of genuine care in Jesus’ eyes, perhaps her long years of having no one to share a simple conversation with, makes her pour her heart out to him. She tells him her whole sad story, like he is the non-judgmental diary she never had. He listens patiently—more concerned with getting to know this woman than he is to continue his journey—and when she is finished, he does something more meaningful even than her physical healing. He says to her, “Daughter, your faith has made you well; go in peace, and be healed of your disease” (v. 34). This woman with no family to speak of, no friends, no supporters, no advocates, and no money has now been declared a Daughter in the kingdom of God. She is as beloved to Jesus as the young girl is to Jairus. No longer the outcast with no one to support her, the woman has been welcomed into a family where she can finally belong and be loved.

What started with a simple touch, a stolen moment of connection, has turned into a relationship. In her desperation, the woman comes seeking an end to her illness but receives a healing that transforms not only her body but also her spirit. Where others looked and saw despair, Jesus sees the potential for new life. Where others looked past her as a faceless body in the crowd, Jesus looks into her eyes and sees a child of God. In their conversation that day, the woman is moved from despair to hope, from being a nobody to being a somebody. By giving her that brief touch, that listening ear, and the loving name of “Daughter,” Jesus has given the woman a whole new life. No, she was not about to die like Jairus’ daughter, but her life had lost all joy and all but the last glimmer of hope. Jesus restores that life that used to be—and more. In her newly healed body and her newly bestowed identity as “Daughter,” the woman can indeed go in peace to live a life of meaning and joy.

But what of Jairus’ daughter, who was so close to death? In the midst of Jesus’ conversation with the woman, messengers come with the news that the girl has already died. Jairus must have been heartbroken, and probably furious with Jesus for having stopped for so long to talk with this woman. What is Jesus to do now that he has failed? How can he respond when death has already taken claim on Jairus’ daughter’s life?

If he were anyone but God, he could do nothing. But Jesus is God—the God whose distinguishing characteristic is resurrection. The God whose love and power overflow so much that God brings life and hope out of the deepest brokenness and despair. Later, Jesus himself will suffer death on the cross and rise, resurrected, to demonstrate God’s ultimate victory over death. But on this day, when confronted with the premature death of a 12-year-old girl, he gives us a foretaste of that life-giving power. At the news that Jairus’ daughter has died, he responds, “Do not fear; only believe.” Another translation reads, “Don’t give up. Trust me.” Indeed, so often we find ourselves in predicaments where we see no way forward. Our calculations and reasoning tell us that hope is gone. But hope is never gone when we have a resurrecting God on our side.

In spite of the news of the girl’s death, Jesus perseveres. He goes to her, rebuking the paid mourners outside her house as he tells them that she is only sleeping. He approaches the bed of this dead child, and reaches out his hand to hers. Like in the case of the bleeding woman, one touch is enough. Suddenly alive and well, the girl stands up and walks around. The text doesn’t say this, but I imagine that she walked straight into the waiting arms of her parents to embrace each other in gratitude and joy. Life is restored once again.

In the stories of Jairus’ daughter and the bleeding woman, both healed and restored out of despair to new life, we see the resurrection power of our God on display. For the girl, her needs were solely physical; once she was healed, she could go back to being the beloved daughter of her well-off parents. For the woman, despite the magnitude and diversity of her needs, Jesus touched them all and gave her the chance to experience the abundance that life has to offer.

In our world today we see people in need, near and far. The needs are not always visible, as the bleeding woman’s story demonstrates, but they are all around us. In our community, nation, and world are people who need a healing touch. Some suffer from physical or mental ailments or the pain of grief, some have emotional wounds, and some long for a day when they don’t have to worry about how to afford their next meal.

It often takes an interruption to make visible the pain already around us. We’re so good at hiding it from everyone except perhaps our own diaries. Or we’re so concerned with our own struggles that we can’t see the suffering of the people we meet. Even for Jesus, the bleeding woman’s tragic situation would’ve gone unseen and unaddressed if it hadn’t been for her decision to interrupt his journey with a desperate touch.

I can’t help but feel as a United Methodist that the shooting at Mother Emanuel AME Church in Charleston last week was that kind of an interruption for us. The AME denomination is part of our Methodist family and heritage, started by black Methodists in 1816 due to exclusionary practices by our predecessor Methodist Episcopal Church. It is but one of many sad examples of racism in our history as a denomination and as a country. Thankfully, violent extremists like this shooter are relatively rare. However, they are just a symptom of a larger and ever-present problem. Our cultural heritage of racial inequality has not yet left us, and people of color suffer every single day because of it in ways large and small. Here in South Dakota where our population is less diverse, that suffering can be harder to see. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t exist. We live in a country where policies, systems, and attitudes produce unequal opportunities for and disproportionate aggression against our African American brothers and sisters—a huge portion of whom are part of our Christian family and need our loving support.

As I was reflecting on the story of the bleeding woman this past week, I believe it has two lessons for us today. First of all, in Jesus we have a savior whose healing power is deep—not limited by time constraints, feasibility, or eligibility. We see in this story how attentively and patiently he cares for this most unlikely recipient, healing and restoring her beyond her wildest hope. If he shows so much compassion for someone who comes from behind to steal his blessing without permission, we can rest assured that he will extend us grace when we but reach out to receive it, no matter how unworthy we feel.

Second, we see that sometimes the most important thing needed is a shoulder to lean on. Yes, the woman in the story needed to stop bleeding, but what she needed even more than that was the knowledge that she mattered to someone. You and I can, and should, do everything within our power to offer healing and hope to people in need, but we won’t be able to heal every ailment. Sometimes, the only thing we can do is listen, and care. And as powerless as that might make you feel, it makes a tremendous difference.

Like the woman who went from being an unloved nobody to a welcomed member of the family, like the people from “Mortified” who felt relieved after having read their embarrassing diary entries out loud to a crowd, people who are in pain can find enormous comfort in knowing they are not alone. So in those times when we wish we had Jesus’ miraculous healing power but don’t, we can still do something. We can offer our shoulders, our hands, our eyes, and our ears to those who feel like no one cares that they’re suffering. There are many people who need to feel that love and support—from as close as our family members or pews to as far as the other side of the globe—and it is our calling as followers of Christ to be those shoulders, hands, eyes, and ears to them.

And after the interruption of the tragedy in Charleston last week, we can see more clearly the pain being felt by our fellow Americans. And now that we see it, we must also reach out our hands to the black community. Like the bleeding woman, they have been in pain for years and years, with no one to listen to their cries and show them that they matter. Now, as we grieve alongside our black brothers and sisters for those nine precious lives that were lost at Mother Emanuel Church, we must do so with our eyes and ears open so that we can be a part of a greater healing. A national deliverance from racism that can only begin through our willingness to listen and to hear. To let our fellow Americans of color know that their lives do matter to us, that their grief is our grief. And that together we can move forward in the audacious and unending hope that comes only through our God of resurrection. Amen.

Artwork by Sharon Geiser, from

Artwork by Sharon Geiser, from

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